Sigh

Well today or yesterday at this time I guess, sucked ass. (seems to be a running theme I have going here) Stayed out friday and stayed at daniels till late last night and have had no sleep all night. I stayed up all night. For starters I get home to find a FedEx package containing a letter from EBgames HR dept that stated (and I paraphrase here) That they are glad I contacted them with my concern about the DM and tehy have put under "internal investigation" and are looking into the matter, However my reason for termination (giving to them by him) was policy violationa and since I did violate the discount policy my termination will stand as is. Any further questions or comments feel free to contact HR, yatta yatta yatta. . .

So basicly I'm canned and hes only under investigation. I could still fight it and win I have small mob of abgry people waiting for my word to protest in front of EBgames. I am sure that the handbook with the policy I violated in it also states tahts first offense gets a written warning of some sort and not just termination. Doesn't seem fair to run a company where you only get one strike. I dunno I am kinda at the point where I don't care anymore about alot of things. . .

Lynette called me again, drunk as usal. She only seems to call me drunk. I dunno this time its like she was best friend. She had to tell me about her RD or some guy in charge of the dorms or soemthing anyway he plays the same star wars game as me and he has trying for some time to make his own character and can't get it right. So she told him how I had made my own and how they got reviewed and put on websites on what not and he offered to pay me to make it for him but I will not charge him. Just when I need a good refference in the future when I go for that dream job in the videogame world they'll be giving him a call ;) He has my screen name and will messege me tomorrow. I dunno maybe its cause I know, I KNOW, I'm twice as smart and better than over half the spoiled rich non-greatfull pricks at her college but that its just not in the cards for me and I can't stand it!!!!!!!!!!!!! They take advantage of all the things laid before them on a silver plate while beyond average guys like me know we can do better than them and just aren't allowed to! I see my life going no where for a min here. Its depresing rather I fight this thing or not, ratehr I get my EBjob back or not does not matter really either way sooner or later i will have to get another job. Shannons right my life is going no where right now and no one needs to be part of it cause I would only bring them down. its not fair to them. What they don't understand is all I seem to run into is dead ends no matter how hard I try and believe me I DO try. I'm just getting sick of getting my hopes up only to be shot down I'm about ready to give up and quit wich before a year ago is a word that wasn't in my vocab! I dunno guess I need a lil more beer and fresh air for the time being. . .